Sometimes the people that drive you absolutely up a wall is your family....specifically my mother. There are moments when I wish I could just run out of my house and drown out her constant nagging, and lectures. It seems as if I can NEVER do anything right in her eyes...and after awhile, you get sick and tired of having to deal with that sort of stuff. You're just never good enough......it's like I have to live my life flawlessly so that it makes up for the things she never got to do in her life. But is it right for her as a parent to try and make me live her life over again?? I know that she has the best intentions, and that she wishes the best for me, but hell, I NEED SOME ROOM TO BREATHE HERE!!!

Arghhhhh! See? I just got into another fight with her, that's all we do....argue, fight....but no, she can never find a way to apologize for anything.

Just had to get that out......otherwise I'd be fuming....

Today, I was having dinner with a friend at a restaurant and there was the Al Jazeera news network on tv. They were showing footage of dead bodies so I didn't know what it was, and then they were interviewing American soldiers....what their name is, where they're from, etc... I didn't really think much of it. But then I got home and turned on the news and found that there are American soldiers supposedly captured and maybe killed. So I turned back to the Al Jazeera network, and I see closeup footage of American soldiers all shot in the head.... I'm not sure I'm made to handle this kind of stuff....and they keep replaying it over and over again. I hate this damn war!!!!

If this is what we as a species are capable of...and that is what we have to show to one another, than I'd rather not be any part of it. I can see those images just running through my head over and over again...and I don't konw what to do with myself. I don't know what to do.....

*if anyone is offended by what I wrote, consider it a personal opinion about soemthing that I definitely saw...I apologize if I offend anyone.

Today, I came across a situation where I was just appalled at the selfishness of some people around me. It is a known fact that if a war erupts with Iraq, the school will be closed for two days due to safety precautions. I had people come to me today complaining about how their term papers are due tomorrow and how they wish the war would start, or how the US should just attack now so that they wouldn't have to do the work. Now to me, that shocks me and upsets me beyond belief. The fact that people are going around thinking that their term papers are more important than people being killed....then maybe I misjudged some people. It's just sick that people would go around saying that...or to even make sounds of bombs dropping in the middle of a lecture when there was an Iraqi student in the room. Maybe I'm too much of a left-wing, but I don't think war is the answer...and if it ever was then maybe we should rethink what we're doing to ourselves and our future.

For the past three months, it never really hit me that war was possible. Just like many other people, I thought that it would blow over. But now I'm not so sure. In light of today's events, with UK/US 2nd resolution being withdrawn and Kofi Annan announcing that all UN inspectors and humanitarian workers are to be withdrawn in Iraq, I have this feeling of uneasiness that comes over me. Maybe it's because I live in the Middle East as a foreigner, but still the fact that war seems to be inevitable upsets me. For the past week, every night I've had to listen to military helicopters and planes fly back and forth in Cairo. And you'd think because of the distance between Iraq and Egypt, this wouldn't be much of an issue. Maybe it has to do something with the fact that Egypt is home to the largest US embassy in the world. I'm just frustrated and upset with the whole ordeal....the things that we can do to our own species, and the atrocities humans can do to other humans still shocks me. *sigh* What kind of world are we making for our children??

For the past three months, it never really hit me that war was possible. Just like many other people, I thought that it would blow over. But now I'm not so sure. In light of today's events, with UK/US 2nd resolution being withdrawn and Kofi Annan announcing that all UN inspectors and humanitarian workers are to be withdrawn in Iraq, I have this feeling of uneasiness that comes over me. Maybe it's because I live in the Middle East as a foreigner, but still the fact that war seems to be inevitable upsets me. For the past week, every night I've had to listen to military helicopters and planes fly back and forth in Cairo. And you'd think because of the distance between Iraq and Egypt, this wouldn't be much of an issue. Maybe it has to do something with the fact that Egypt is home to the largest US embassy in the world. I'm just frustrated and upset with the whole ordeal....the things that we can do to our own species, and the atrocities humans can do to other humans still shocks me. *sigh*